Transformation Tuesday - New Beginnings

I have been slacking......A LOT. I have been trying to lose weight off and on but basically off. I have let it all slide. BUT I am to the point now that I just know I need to lose it. I have started Weight Watchers online. I don't have to go to any meetings, it's all online. I am hoping that I can get my eating under control. I have been doing WW for almost a week now and have lost about a pound. Very disappointing but a loss is a loss! We will see how this journey goes for me! I have the year subscription so I have to stick to it for a year. I am hoping to add exercise back in again. I try to be more active but during the summer can be a lot harder with it being 100 degrees outside! I did my first 5k in a LONG time. It took me 1:02:29.4 BUT I did it! Now to work on getting that time down for my next 5k in August.


My New Start
June 1: 284.0 lbs
June 30: 279.0 lbs

Transformation Tuesdays Week #52

Well, it's a year later since I decided to do Transformation Tuesdays. What did I learn about myself?

• I have no self control
• I am a VERY emotional eater
• I try to do something and when I fail, food is my go to
• I DEFINITELY don't follow through like I need to
• In a year of ups and downs with weight, I only gained 5.2 lbs at the end of it
• I lost my motivation
• I lost my drive
• I am running out of excuses

The last one is the one I am focusing on. I AM RUNNING OUT OF EXCUSES. I don't like being overweight. It's not the way people are towards me, it's how I am towards myself. When I lost weight down to 260, I didn't look much different BUT I had confidence in myself. I FELT sexy. I didn't care what others thought AND I didn't care what I thought about myself as I thought I looked great! I think that is to be my theme this coming year, finding myself again and making myself feel healthy, well, and so confident in myself. I'm planning on writing up my New Year's Resolutions and posting them. I would hate to think I fail them but I know I truly am what is holding myself back at this time!

Starting (January 7); 278.4
Week 2 (Jan 14): 279.0
Week 3 (Jan 21): 280.8
Week 4 (Jan 28): 278.8
Week 9 (Mar 4): 281.4
Week 16 (Apr 22): 285.8
Week 20 (May 20): 281.4
Week 21 (May 27): 281.4
Week 22 (Jun 3): 283.0
Week 23 (Jun 10): 283.2
Week 24 (Jun 17): 282.6
Week 25 (Jun 24): 282.0
Week 26 (Jul 1): 281.2
Week 27 (Jul 8) 280.4
Week 42 (Oct 14): 275.0
Week 43 (Oct 21): 277.6
Week 52 (Dec 30): 283.6

Transformation Tuesdays Week #43

So, here is my goal for the end of the year. On Tuesday, December 30th (10 weeks from now) I hope to be down to 260.0 lbs. I figured I would make it a nice and simple goal. It's not about the measures, etc right now. It's that I start. I have a terrible time starting then continuing with my weight loss goals. I need to do this not only for me but for my family. If I'm eating terribly, so are they. I help bring the junk in so I need to help take it out. I guess the only thing I can look at positively for this year so far is that I haven't really gained any weight. There is so much worse that I could have done. Got to be positive to continue the positive!






Starting (January 7); 278.4
Week 2 (Jan 14): 279.0
Week 3 (Jan 21): 280.8
Week 4 (Jan 28): 278.8
Week 9 (Mar 4): 281.4
Week 16 (Apr 22): 285.8
Week 20 (May 20): 281.4
Week 21 (May 27): 281.4
Week 22 (Jun 3): 283.0
Week 23 (Jun 10): 283.2
Week 24 (Jun 17): 282.6
Week 25 (Jun 24): 282.0
Week 26 (Jul 1): 281.2
Week 27 (Jul 8) 280.4
Week 42 (Oct 14): 275.0
Week 43 (Oct 21): 277.6

Transformation Tuesdays Week 42

Well, I totally fell off the wagon. I let myself do whatever I wanted. I got in a major funk. There is so much I could say and so many excuses, but I'm just going to put that behind myself right now. I have been working on my eating this week and so far been doing much better. I'll start adding a goal or two in there too but for right now, I am just going to try and take it a day at a time, a meal at a time because that is where I have to be. Everyone has to start somewhere right?

Starting (January 7) : 278.4 lbs
Week 2 (Jan 14): 279.0 lbs
Week 3 (Jan 21): 280.8 lbs
Week 4 (Jan 28): 278.8 lbs
Week 9 (Mar 4): 281.4 lbs
Week 16(Apr 22): 285.8 lbs
Week 20(May 20): 281.4 lbs
Week 21(May 21): 281.4 lbs
Week 22 (June 3): 283.0 lbs

Week 23(June 10: 283.2 lbs
Week 24(June 17) 282.6 lbs
Week 25(June 24): 282.0 lbs
Week 26(July 1): 281.2 lbs

Week 27(July 8): 280.4 lbs
Week 42: 275.0 lbs

Transformation Tuesdays Week 27

It was a longer week then usual, but shorter at the same time! Holiday weekends can do that to you! I know I could have eaten a lot worse than I did. I could have eaten better than I did too. The good news is, I'm not going to beat myself up for it. I didn't get much accomplished on the home front I believe because we were gone for 4 days to spend time with family. It was a great break from home but it was still a bit stressful. Just like a vacation is with kids! My hubby helped his dad rebuild his deck so a lot of his time was out there while my time was with the kids and cooking and baking for the different pot lucks we had and then a big meal for the guys that helped with the deck. It was a great weekend, don't get me wrong. BUT I would love to have another weekend now after it so we can all recoup and I can get some time with the hubby that is not with the kids! Difference between last week and this week: 

• Not as busy
• I am ready to dig in on the workouts
• I have been on a cleaning/decluttering spree! 
• I am going to work to FINISH all my goals

So, this week I will be leaving my goals all the same in hopes that next week when I update, I will have a strike through everything! Hope you all have a great week!!

Personal Goals This Week:

• Write 12 Posts
• Daily Devotional 5x
• Track Food 7x
• 6 Days Under Calories
• Work Out 6x This Week
• Read One Book
• Don't Weigh In Until Next Tuesday!
• Drink 72 oz a Day 
• Clean Kitchen AND Dining Room/Computer Desk AND My Bedroom
• Track Spending!

Personal Goals Last Week:

• Write 12 Posts  9 so closer!
• Daily Devotional 5x
• Track Food 7x
• 6 Days Under Calories Holiday weekends are not nice to me!
• Work Out 6x This Week 5! Missed on 2 days!
• Read One Book Didn't make time :(
• Don't Weigh In Until Next Tuesday! Only 2 times!!!
• Drink 72 oz a Day 
• Clean Kitchen AND Dining Room/Computer Desk AND My Bedroom All but desk!
• Track Spending!

Starting (January 7) : 278.4 lbs
Week 2 (Jan 14): 279.0 lbs
Week 3 (Jan 21): 280.8 lbs
Week 4 (Jan 28): 278.8 lbs
Week 9 (Mar 4): 281.4 lbs
Week 16(Apr 22): 285.8 lbs
Week 20(May 20): 281.4 lbs
Week 21(May 21): 281.4 lbs
Week 22 (June 3): 283.0 lbs

Week 23(June 10: 283.2 lbs
Week 24(June 17) 282.6 lbs
Week 25(June 24): 282.0 lbs
Week 26(July 1): 281.2 lbs

Week 27(July 8): 280.4 lbs

Day 15 Of 30 Day Shred.....Half Way!

Yay! I am now half way through my 30 Day Shred challenge! I did miss a couple days over the weekend as we were out of town. I made up for it in some of the hard work I was doing I think! Then I really got back into it yesterday as it was day 15! Things I have noticed.....

1) I don't take a good picture of myself!

 

2) I am not sweating as bad! I used to start sweating right away, now I can get to almost Round #3 before I start a downpour!

3) I do not have to "rest" like I did in the beginning!

4) I do have more endurance as she makes note of! I ran with my son for a short distance and wasn't completely winded and done with the day! I actually felt invigorated! 

5) I feel better about doing the workout! It's something I feel better about doing, instead of HAVING to do!

Now, for the half way measurements!!!

Measurements Before:

(June 23rd)

Arms:  Left 17" Right 17.5"

Thighs: Left 30" Right 30" Circumference 43.5"

Hips: 58"

Waist(measured below tatas): 46"

Chest(tatas): 52"

Measurements Half Way:

(July 7th)

Arms: Left 16.5"  Right 17"

Thighs: Left 30" Right 30" Circumference 43.5"

Hips: 57"

Waist: 43.5"

Chest: 52"

Total in 15 days: Overall 4.5" inches!

I know some could lose more. I know I could lose more if I ate really well and did it the days I missed BUT to know I lost 4.5" is awesome!!! Now to see where I end up at the end of this! Only 15 more days to go! July 22nd isn't that far away!

Day 7 - 30 Day Shred

I don't know about you, but I think I'm not as red and sweaty! Yesterday was Day 7 of the self imposed 30 Day Shred. After 7 days, I can do it almost completely through! I stop because of a muscle pain in my calf when doing jump rope but that's about it! I can tell my endurance is getting better. Jillian even says in the video if you are on day 5, 6, or 7 you are probably seeing that difference.......YUP! It's crazy what you can put your body through and then see how my lungs don't hurt as bad and the "rush" I am getting from that 2 minutes that I am out of breath. Of course my favorite part is when it's over, who wouldn't feel that way?! Now that I have done this a week, I am hoping I can change up my eating habits/styles/portions/overeating a bit to see that weight melt off. I have been having the issue that I do great usually 5 days a week but then weekends especially I go over on my calories and I think that's why I stay evened out. Food is a passion and a downfall for me so of course this is the hardest thing for me to do! 

What do you do to help keep yourself in check with food? Is there things you can't even have in the house?

Day 4 of 30 Day Shred

I was going to post this yesterday but didn't get around to it! So, I figured better late than never right?

 This is me after Day 4 workout. 

See all that sweat?! Yea, it has been bad! I won't complain too much but definitely do this workout and take a shower after! And see here where I'm pointing?

Yea, that's my calf........OUCH! I think for all the pain that I have had, that has been the worst! It starts to hurt and then burn! BUT you know what I have been noticing after 4 days, I have MUSCLES! Like my leg muscles are actually getting stronger!

And, with being on Day 4 (will be doing Day 5 here in a few!) what difference did I see? Well, I'm not as out of breath as I was. Who knew?! Not me! And another thing, after this I put on my swimsuit and went to the Y for a water works class! Yup, I am going into crazy mode! I am not proud of this picture right now, but will be later.....

I know I don't smile often, another thing I am working on! But with this picture, I can see all the fat that I need to work on! I see this picture and can't believe I'm that big! I don't see the whole picture (I don't like looking in the mirror!) so this is definitely a wake up call for me! It is time to start living the healthy lifestyle I should so that I can be in love with myself. Yes, I try to act like I don't care but it really does hurt thinking that people are looking down on you. Well, it's time to get to where I love my body in everything I do and be proud of myself! In less than a week, I can tell you I am starting to feel better about myself. I am feeling myself get stronger and watching myself say no to foods I would eat no issues. Made a whole pan of brownies for my kids for a play date......I went back AFTER and ate just one. ONE!!!!! Some people will look at that like oh, you shouldn't have done that. To me, that's just one! I would usually eat about half the pan by myself! When you get your mindset right and start on the work, it shows that the rest just flows!

What do you do to help accomplish your goals? 

What do you do to help with your body image and self-esteem?

Transformation Tuesdays Week 25

My body and I were in a fight last week. It's going on this week too a bit but I'm going to get over that bump in the road now! I explained it in my 30 Day Shred Day #1 Again post, but I'll put it here too. I have PCOS. (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) It sucks. A lot. I take medicine to keep myself "regular" but there are times my body decides to do other things still. Or I being stupid don't take my medicine when I'm supposed to and forget to get the refill until 2 weeks after.....meaning basically 2 in 1...... so in some ways this is my fault. BUT my kids made me work out yesterday and instead of in a bad mood, I started to get in a better mood :) I am hoping this week brings some great transformations for myself both physically and mentally!


Personal Goals Last Week:

• Write 10 Posts Will be better this week! :)
• Daily Devotional 5x Main Goal/Focus This Week!
• Track Food 7x Missed Saturday evening....not a good weekend!
• 4 Days Under Calories  Right at!
• Work Out 4x This Week  Barely!
• Read Two Books Just One.......it's been a week!
• Take Kids To Library Ran out of time :( AND kids not good on story day so missed that too!
• Don't Weigh In Until Next Tuesday! ONLY 2 EXTRA TIMES! GETTING THERE!
• Drink 72 oz a Day (especially needed on work out days!)
• Clean Kitchen AND Dining Room/Computer Desk Think this week will be better to finish!

Personal Goals This Week:

• Write 10 Posts
• Daily Devotional 5x
• Track Food 7x
• 5 Days Under Calories
• Work Out 5x This Week
• Read One Book
• Take Kids To Library
• Don't Weigh In Until Next Tuesday!
• Drink 72 oz a Day (especially needed on work out days!)
• Clean Kitchen AND Dining Room/Computer Desk 

Starting (January 7) : 278.4 lbs
Week 2 (Jan 14): 279.0 lbs
Week 3 (Jan 21): 280.8 lbs
Week 4 (Jan 28): 278.8 lbs
Week 9 (Mar 4): 281.4 lbs
Week 16(Apr 22): 285.8 lbs
Week 20(May 20): 281.4 lbs
Week 21(May 21): 281.4 lbs
Week 22 (June 3): 283.0 lbs

Week 23(June 10: 283.2 lbs
Week 24(June 17) 282.6 lbs
Week 25(June 24): 282.0 lbs

30 Day Shred - Day 1

Yesterday, I decided it was time to do Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. I have done it in the past and had some great results, but only made it 20 days before I stopped. This time around I am determined to do the full 30 Days on Level 1. The 30 Day Shred has 3 levels, 1 being the easiest and 3 being the hardest. I have done level 1 and level 2. Level 2 about killed me and I dropped it back down to level 1. By the end of the 20 days when I did it before, there were a couple days I did level 2 then did level 1. Yes, I was determined and semi suicidal on the work outs! When I first started it, I couldn't get through level 1 completely without stopping in places. By the end, I could do it non stop. This time around in Day 1, OUCH! I only stopped a couple of times compared to the first time I ever did it, but crazy how much of a difference it was to me. I was down pour sweat and so out of breath.

Me After. Tons of sweat, red faced, smelly, and feeling oh so yucky!

When I did my punches during one of the circuits, I was pretending I was punching Jillian Michaels in the face. I try to think of myself as a nice person, but that lady can really make you hate her and I think that's her point. It helps to motivate you and to keep going. 

It takes 21 days to make a habit. My hope is in the 30 days, I will see a great difference and have a better endurance to be able to do much more work outs. There is so much of a rush when you work out and especially when you are DONE!

And to see how much of a change the 30 Days will make on me, including me being more responsible for my food intake AND maybe some aquatic workouts (I love them!) I decided to measure myself. It's not just about your weight, its about the inches you lose. That is what I think I need to use to see a difference.

Measurements Before:

(June 16th)

Arms:  Left 17" Right 17.5"

Thighs: Left 30" Right 30" Circumference 43.5"

Hips: 58"

Waist(measured below tatas): 46"

Chest(tatas): 52"

Jeans size: 26w (and I don't have any anymore since I got rid of them :( this estimate is because my 24w won't fit at the moment!)

Transformation Tuesdays Week 24

This past week has been a hard one on me. Summer with 3 kids at home is hard, I feel sorry for their teachers during the school year! We are trying to find fun things to do but right now I just don't want to leave the house! I didn't do too well on my personal goals this past week but I think I am on a great track compared to if I wasn't making goals. I also started 30 Day Shred again yesterday so I will put up a post later about that so I can update you on that throughout the 30 days of doing it. Hopefully this next week will be better (as my kids are screaming at the top of their lungs at each other as I typed that!)

Personal Goals Last Week:

• Write 10 Posts This Week    Only 2 short!
• Daily Devotional 5x   Really slacked :(
• Track Food 7x       Hit 31 days straight today!
• 3 Days Under Calories
• Go To Gym 4x  Went 3 times!
• Read 2 Books This Week  Forgot book at home so only finished one
• Take Kids To Splash Park 1x (since flooding/raining right now!) BROKEN :( saying it might be a couple more weeks before it's fixed! Oh well! Swim lessons!
• Take Kids To Library
• Don't Weigh Until Next Tuesday!  Yea, may as well not even have this as a goal :(
• Clean Kitchen       Woohoo!

Personal Goals This Week:

• Write 10 Posts
• Daily Devotional 5x
• Track Food 7x
• 4 Days Under Calories
• Work Out 4x This Week
• Read Two Books
• Take Kids To Library
• Don't Weigh In Until Next Tuesday!
• Drink 72 oz a Day (especially needed on work out days!)
• Clean Kitchen AND Dining Room/Computer Desk

Starting (January 7) : 278.4 lbs
Week 2 (Jan 14): 279.0 lbs
Week 3 (Jan 21): 280.8 lbs
Week 4 (Jan 28): 278.8 lbs
Week 9 (Mar 4): 281.4 lbs
Week 16(Apr 22): 285.8 lbs
Week 20(May 20): 281.4 lbs
Week 21(May 21): 281.4 lbs
Week 22 (June 3): 283.0 lbs

Week 23(June 10: 283.2 lbs
Week 24(June 17) 282.6 lbs

Weekly Transformation Week 23

This week was a bit different as my sister was in town visiting so I didn't do as much as I wanted. It also has been raining basically all weekend so that put us all in that "coma"...you know the one, where all you want to do is sleep, eat, read, and maybe get up to go to the bathroom if you really need to! It was nice but now the sun is TRYING to come out so time to get back to some goals. With the kids home for the summer, I am adding in a goal a week to get a "room" in the house clean and spotless. I am giving myself a week to get it done and hopefully keep it clean. Then the hope is to add another room to that the next week and be able to keep up with it all at the end. I do so great with it and then fall off and have to start all over again with the WHOLE house. Basically the only room that I really do keep up on is the bathroom. With a potty training boy, it has to be kept up on! Do you have any goals you are working on this week?



Personal Goals This Week:

• Write 10 Posts This Week
• Daily Devotional 5x 
• Track Food 7x
• 3 Days Under Calories
• Go To Gym 4x
• Read 2 Books This Week
• Take Kids To Splash Park 1x (since flooding/raining right now!)
• Take Kids To Library
• Don't Weigh Until Next Tuesday!
• Clean Kitchen 

Personal Goals Last Week:

• Write One Post A Day Missed Sunday
• Daily Devotional 4x this week
• Track Food 7x this week
• 3 Days Under Calories this week Only 1 day.....
• Go to gym 4x this week Went 2 times, hoping this week will work!
• Read 2 books this week
• Drink 64 oz of water a day
• Take Kids to Splash Park 2x this week Only 1, its been busy then rain!
• Take kids to library this week
• Don't weigh until next Tuesday! 2 other times, BUT I used to weigh every day so this is a great start!

Starting (January 7) : 278.4 lbs
Week 2 (Jan 14): 279.0 lbs
Week 3 (Jan 21): 280.8 lbs
Week 4 (Jan 28): 278.8 lbs
Week 9 (Mar 4): 281.4 lbs
Week 16(Apr 22): 285.8 lbs
Week 20(May 20): 281.4 lbs
Week 21(May 21): 281.4 lbs
Week 22 (June 3): 283.0 lbs

Week 23(June 10: 283.2 lbs

Transformation Tuesdays Week 22

First off, how can it already be June?! And how can it already be 22 weeks into the year?!? Well, didn't do too bad this week but really didn't cross much off either. I am realizing more and more of my need to add exercise and restraint of food back into my life! I did good on eating right at calories twice this week but still gained a bit of weight. There are many factors to that as I am a woman and water weight does fluctuate. The main this is I am feeling better about myself and that's what really counts right now. My big obstacle I want to accomplish is to get rid of this stomach! I mean seriously, I know I am a beautiful person, but at same time this gets in my way of my self confidence and also my health. It's not good to be 100 lbs overweight! I am getting the urge more and more to work out so I need to take that urge and put forth on it! It's nice this week as the kids have VBS and all of them are there so that's 3 hrs a day right now this week to accomplish what I need AND one thing I NEED to accomplish is going to the gym. So with that, I better head to the gym and try to see how out of shape I really am again! Good thing is that I only have an hour left before I need to pick up the kids so I can't do too much! ;)

Personal Goals Last Week:

• Write one blog post a day this week  Missed Saturday & Sunday 
• Daily Devotional at least 4 times this week Only did 2 times 
• Track Daily Food Intake at least 5 times this week
• Have two days under calories  Even though I did this, still gained a bit of weight this week!
• Go to the Gym 2 times this week Will continue to work on this!
• Read one book 
• Drink at least 64 oz of water a day All but one day!!!
• Take Kids to splash park at least 2 times this week Only once
• Don't weigh until next Tuesday! Two extra times, but that's better than I used to be! Have to just keep working on it!

Personal Goals This Week:

• Write One Post A Day
• Daily Devotional 4x this week
• Track Food 7x this week
• 3 Days Under Calories this week
• Go to gym 4x this week
• Read 2 books this week
• Drink 64 oz of water a day
• Take Kids to Splash Park 2x this week
• Take kids to library this week
• Don't weigh until next Tuesday!

Starting (January 7) : 278.4 lbs
Week 2 (Jan 14): 279.0 lbs
Week 3 (Jan 21): 280.8 lbs
Week 4 (Jan 28): 278.8 lbs
Week 9 (Mar 4): 281.4 lbs
Week 16(Apr 22): 285.8 lbs
Week 20(May 20): 281.4 lbs
Week 21(May 21): 281.4 lbs
Week 22 (June 3): 283.0 lbs

Transformation Tuesdays Week 21

I think that this was a great idea for myself! I feel I have been more conscious of what I have been doing and feel like I can keep this up and then build on it. Two things I have really tried to work on are my blog posts. I have been trying to do more so that I can do more with my blog. I have dreams for my blog that I wish I could do like others I know can and do with their popular blogs! 

Another major goal of mine is to be more into the word. As my husband and I are getting more involved with our church, the more I believe we should be in our devotions and growing our relationship with God. I should be spending more time than I currently do. I can personally tell you that when I am in my devotions, the rest of my day is great. I am less angry and more patient. I am less depressed and more blessed! 

I also am in the process of getting a "bored" jar together for the kids and a Summer Bucket List, too! I will share those with you later this week as I am trying to get my ideas put together and then get the things for those projects together too! 

I hope these goals have helped inspire you with your own personal goals. I don't know about you, but having them written down visually has helped me to be more aware of them!What goals do you have on your personal list? Do you have success with personal goals? 



Personal Goals Last Week:

• Write one blog post a day this week  Missed Sunday, but great start!
• Daily Devotional at least 3 times this week 
• Track Daily Food Intake at least 5 times this week
• Go to the Gym 1 time this week Yup, slacked
• Read one book
• Drink at least 64 oz of water a day  5 out of 7 days!
• Take the kids to the splash park at least 2 times this week Granted, hubby took them once too BUT it rained a lot this past week!
• DON'T WEIGH SELF UNTIL NEXT TUESDAY MORNING! Only weighed twice! That's starting to get better!

Personal Goals This Week:

• Write one blog post a day this week
• Daily Devotional at least 4 times this week
• Track Daily Food Intake at least 5 times this week
• Have two days under calories
• Go to the Gym 2 times this week
• Read one book
• Drink at least 64 oz of water a day
• Take Kids to splash park at least 2 times this week
• Don't weigh until next Tuesday! 

Person

Starting (January 7) : 278.4 lbs
Week 2 (Jan 14): 279.0 lbs
Week 3 (Jan 21): 280.8 lbs
Week 4 (Jan 28): 278.8 lbs
Week 9 (Mar 4): 281.4 lbs
Week 16(Apr 22): 285.8 lbs
Week 20(May 20): 281.4 lbs
Week 21(May 21): 281.4 lbs

Transformation Tuesdays Week 20

I know I have been failing on this too often. I want to be happy and healthy and I am really realizing more and more that isn't just with weight, it's also with my attitude. We had a great sermon over the weekend that really hit me (enough to cry!) He took his wife's purse and held up a dumbbell. It represented every diet we here of that changes every week, the way society tells us that we need to look. He took another and it represented how well your children are expected to be perfect in public. Another for how the house needs to be clean and spotless ALL the time. He put all of these in the purse and had his wife try to pick it up. Of course she couldn't! (And fear of breaking the bag! LOL) We as women have all these extra weights we carry around. We feel that to be the best wife and mom we have to do EVERYTHING or we fail. That has been the pressures I have faced. I have been in a major funk and being told to dump that extra weight was what I needed to hear! If we are Godly women, everything else will fall into place. Yes, there is more I can do and I know it. And for that I believe I will start a weekly goal list and then come back every week and say how those goals have gone and to continue and/or start more the next week.

Personal Goals For This Week:

• Write one blog post a day this week
• Daily Devotional at least 3 times this week
• Track Daily Food Intake at least 5 times this week
• Go to the Gym 1 time this week
• Read one book
• Drink at least 64 oz of water a day
• Take the kids to the splash park at least 2 times this week
• DON'T WEIGH SELF UNTIL NEXT TUESDAY MORNING!

Starting (January 7) : 278.4 lbs
Week 2 (Jan 14): 279.0 lbs
Week 3 (Jan 21): 280.8 lbs
Week 4 (Jan 28): 278.8 lbs
Week 9 (Mar 4): 281.4 lbs
Week 16(Apr 22): 285.8 lbs
Week 20(May 20): 281.4 lbs

Transformation Tuesdays - Week 11

For the first time in about 6 months, I see the end of the tunnel. I see the light! Yesterday was the first time in forever that I can remember that I ate better portions. I knew EVERYTHING that went in my mouth. I knew all the calories and wrote it all down. I had gained some weight in the last couple of weeks from depression and binge eating TONS of food. So much so I would make my stomach hurt, turn around and eat some more. It was a bottomless pit. It still feels that way. BUT yesterday I finally did it! I know the big thing I need out of the house is all the sugar junk. It's the end of that wonderful time of the month so hopefully I will be able to get rid of the HUGE craving I have for chocolate and junk and sugar! I know you lose water weight the first week or two so I am hoping I will keep up on my better eating! From yesterday to today, I lost 3.4 lbs! Proof I was eating too much. Proof I wasn't drinking enough. My mind is so much better and not as negative. Don't get me wrong, it's still so negative. I had a bad upbringing of negative self esteem through my peers and school district. I let myself get fat. It didn't happen overnight. I believed the lies that people said. I was fat, I was ugly, I was unwanted. And what did I do? I let them say that and it to seep into the mirror. Every time I look at myself I feel fat, I feel ugly, I feel worthless, I feel unwanted. I ALLOWED myself to start to believe the lies. I have been through a lot in my lifetime, and I want to be HAPPY! I want to be FEARLESS, I want to be the best I have ever been. I am learning to love myself. It's hard to get past those scars. I know I will fight them the rest of my life, but I need to start. The negativity in my head, that's the devil. Those evil thoughts/judgments, that's the devil. I have the ones that truly love me in my life. Those that make me feel bad, they shouldn't be in my life. Sad that it took me until 30 to officially want to change this. It's better late than never! The number shouldn't matter, its just to show how I am doing. That's what I need to remind myself.

Starting (January 7) : 278.4 lbs
Week 2 (Jan 14): 279.0 lbs
Week 3 (Jan 21): 280.8 lbs
Week 4 (Jan 28): 278.8 lbs
Week 9 (Mar 4): 281.4 lbs
Week 11 (Mar 18): 281.4 lbs

Transformation Tuesdays: Week 4

Wow, 4 weeks all ready AND almost February??! How did that happen? Well, good news is I think I finally got some of my mental block over with. I have been trying to dress up more, wear make up more often, actually do my hair, ACTUALLY get dressed to impress! That has definitely helped my mood lately. I still have some control and portion issues but I think they are coming along better than they could be. I also started a Bible Study of 21 Days To Be Depression. Very neat videos and then verses in the Bible to read. I think it has helped me be in a better mood and to see what God loves me for and I am special and Godly for HIM not for everyone else. Things you just need to be reminded of every day! Now for the numbers part:


Starting Weight : 278.4 lbs
Week 4 Weight: 278.8 lbs


It stings a bit to see that number but to know it has gone down, that's a plus. I really need to work on being happy and to work out. I was 262 lbs this time last year and was feeling better than ever. I really want to get back to that and I have to fight for it. The devil needs out of my head. I need to stop listening to the media. Average lady is NOT a 2!!! So with that,

Goals this week:

• Go to gym at least once!
• Go to bed before 10pm weekdays
• Drink 64 oz or more water a day

I think that's a good start! What are you doing to make yourself feel better?

Transformation Tuesdays: Week 3

Well, here it is, week 3. I was hoping to have good news. I was hoping to say I've lost lots of weight and have been doing awesome! I was hoping to show a picture of my greatness. Guess what? I've gained weight again this week! Between stress and horomones and excuses I gained weight. I got another cold and using that as an excuse not to work out. I have allowed my mind to take over, telling me I am worthless, that I can't do this. I have failed to overcome that demon in my life. Well guess what. I am DONE listening to this demon. I am sick of putting myself down. The only way to change this is to change myself. So, again, I am going to tell myself I am worth it. I am going to continue to eat better and if I eat too much, it's okay. I am going to go for a walk, to clear my head, to get that exercise in, to make myself feel better. I can no longer wear my fitbit as I have found out it has nickel in it and I'm allergic to nickel. Thank goodness I didn't get as bad of a break out as others! So, now I will not be able to see how lazy I have been. WHICH I think maybe a good thing! I am human. I am a mom, a wife, a woman, someone who will fall but I WILL NOT FAIL! I need to do this for myself  more than any one else. I need to be happy with myself FOR myself and no one else. So with that:

Starting Weight (Jan 7): 278.4 lbs
Current Weight (Jan 21): 280.8 lbs

Yes, I know 2-3 lb gain, that's not bad. Well, when you tell yourself you will never see 280 again, you can't see it again, well then it hits you hard. I already was down to 260 this time last year. I got rid of all my "FAT" clothes and was never going to see this again. Well, I am and I am going to face it head on. I have to. Something has to change. I didn't want to share pictures, but I feel I have to. I know there are so many out there that deal with the same issues. They hate their body. No matter how much more weight they have lost, or are going to lose, they are always going to fill the same. We need to start to learn to love ourselves. Being "Bullied" my whole life, my self esteem is pretty low. I need to learn that I am who I am and no one can change that! Yes, I'm rambling but it's something I need to type out and I need to hear.

I AM BEAUTIFUL                            I AM WORTH IT                       I MATTER
          I CAN DO WHAT I WANT                  I CAN LOOK GOOD IN WHAT I WANT
I AM PROUD OF WHO I AM                  I AM PROUD OF WHERE I HAVE COME
               I AM MY OWN TRUE BEAUTY             I AM MY OWN TRUE SELF

 Yes, my face doesn't look pleased. It wasn't just the pictures, it was the kids yelling and getting in the way and some other things going on. Plus, if you know me, you know I don't smile. I need to learn to smile again. Anyways, Here are my pictures. I AM GOING TO BE BETTER FOR MYSELF! I WILL LOVE MYSELF!!! That is my main goal at the moment. Learn to love myself. Learn who I am again. Learn that I can do anything!

Transformation Tuesdays: Week 2

It has not been a good week. I was doing good and saw myself down 3 lbs! Then that lovely "time of the month" is trying to show its ugly head so now I am up again!!! Grrr! Hopefully after this week I will be down again. Other issue right now is that I somehow tweaked my back on the right side and now am suffering! I can't really do anything and keep having to go back and forth from standing to sitting to laying down with no relief. The hubby checked and it seems like I pinched or pulled a muscle because he can feel the knot! Hopefully another day or two of icing and meds and I will be okay again! I told myself no excuses, but right now I can't help it with pain!


Starting Weight (Jan 7): 278.4 lbs
Current Weight (Jan 14): 279.0 lbs

Transformation Tuesdays: Week 1

I keep seeing people post different kinds of transformations and think that's a great idea. I have decided that I am going to do this once a week I to keep track of my weight loss journey! This being the first week for it, I figured I would share a beginning picture and then a more recent one, that way you can see where I have come from and where I am going.

This is my before..... yea, I still have it and keep it so I can see where I have came from. This picture was taken April 2011. Almost 3 years ago. I was 26. I decided I couldn't leave like that anymore. We decided the best the for me was to have reduction surgery. I do not recommend it as a fast fix. I was 300 lbs here, the heaviest I ever had been. Even after the reduction I was still 285 lbs. I did it for the fact that I was so "front heavy" that I couldn't stand for more than 5 minutes. I couldn't walk far at all. The surgeon said even being so big they would only remove about 5 lbs. Nope, she was wrong! It was over 35 lbs she removed. I think I hold the record! No wonder I couldn't do anything! And of course I told myself this was the beginning, I will lose weight now and be great. Well, here we are almost 3 years later and I'm saying it again. 

This is a picture of me when I first was starting my work out routine and better healthy lifestyle. It did great and I was happy. I was losing inches and was feeling better with myself. Then, I got sick. I didn't just get sick I got VERY sick. I was stick in the hospital with pneumonia for a week. It was NOT fun and I have found myself being sick all the time since then. I would go maybe 3-5 days without being sick. I can tell my immune system is getting better as I haven't caught the last cold the kids had. The last time I have been sick right now was the flu on December 19th. *KNOCKING ON WOOD!!!* 

Trying not to be stereotypical, my husband and I have decided to lose weight together. We decided December 31st was it. That was when we would start. It's been a week and I can tell you I feel like I have been eating less. I am eating better too. The main issue I am having is of course the evening time. I just want to snack all the time. I think now that the kids are back in school, I will want to go to bed sooner and then that will keep me from eating like I have been!

I made it to the gym for the first time in 5-6 months! I was so proud of myself! Last week I decided to give myself a deadline. I had 4 days to get to the gym. So, on Friday I finally went. It felt great! I got on the elliptical and went .5 miles in 7:43 minutes. I decided that was great and didn't want to push myself. I tried to go and walk and do some water aerobics but it being free swim on a Friday, that's when I guess parents send their unsupervised kids and a young boy decided his mission was to ask as many questions as he could to me and then to cannon ball in front of me the whole time. I lasted 5 minutes before I decided to just go to the whirlpool. Oh my goodness that was a great idea! No one was in the area and I could just relax and stretch out for 10 minutes. 

My issue with the gym is I have a lot of activities in the afternoon/evenings. I also don't have the money to try and take the kids with me and don't want to leave them all the time with the hubby as that is just mean in my opinion! Also, they don't seem to have the best hours to work with a schedule to go to the gym with kids either. Hopefully I will figure something out. I know I could work out at home, but then comes in the kids and them bugging me! 

So, goals that I have right now for my weight loss journey:

• Start to eat better/keep tracking (I track on myfitnesspal user name yo8798 if you want to follow!)
• Try to work out 3 times a week (so that I don't overdo it)
• Keep up with no carbonated drinks (I am 15 months pop free!)
• Only weigh myself on Tuesday mornings for this post! (so I don't drive myself crazy! I get obsessed very easily to the weight of the scale)
• Don't beat myself up if I do eat bad (it could be worse! I need to remember I'm human and certain times of the month you DO NEED CHOCOLATE!)
• Do not eat out! (Getting back on my freezer meal kick, then there are NO excuses!)

So there you go, the start of this journey, again. Will I fall? Yes. Will I do great? Yes. Will I give up? Yes but then I have to get back on track again. I need to do this not only for my own health but for my kids!

So for the record, here it is out for the whole world to see!!!

Starting Weight (January 7, 2014): 278.4 lbs