Wordless Wednesday - Geek Humor

Weekly Winnings Through March 24th

Free Dial Hand Soap Coupon

Weekly Menu March 24th to March 30th

SPRING BREAK! Can I tell you how wonderful and stressful this week will be! 

Monday - Freezer Pizzas

Tuesday - Waffles and Sausage

Wednesday - Sloppy Joes

Thursday - Hamburger Helper

Friday - Beef Enchiladas

Saturday - Bj's Restaurant with gift card I won :)

Sunday - Small Groups

Wordless Wednesday - My Dad's Project Model A Rebuild

Transformation Tuesdays - Week 11

For the first time in about 6 months, I see the end of the tunnel. I see the light! Yesterday was the first time in forever that I can remember that I ate better portions. I knew EVERYTHING that went in my mouth. I knew all the calories and wrote it all down. I had gained some weight in the last couple of weeks from depression and binge eating TONS of food. So much so I would make my stomach hurt, turn around and eat some more. It was a bottomless pit. It still feels that way. BUT yesterday I finally did it! I know the big thing I need out of the house is all the sugar junk. It's the end of that wonderful time of the month so hopefully I will be able to get rid of the HUGE craving I have for chocolate and junk and sugar! I know you lose water weight the first week or two so I am hoping I will keep up on my better eating! From yesterday to today, I lost 3.4 lbs! Proof I was eating too much. Proof I wasn't drinking enough. My mind is so much better and not as negative. Don't get me wrong, it's still so negative. I had a bad upbringing of negative self esteem through my peers and school district. I let myself get fat. It didn't happen overnight. I believed the lies that people said. I was fat, I was ugly, I was unwanted. And what did I do? I let them say that and it to seep into the mirror. Every time I look at myself I feel fat, I feel ugly, I feel worthless, I feel unwanted. I ALLOWED myself to start to believe the lies. I have been through a lot in my lifetime, and I want to be HAPPY! I want to be FEARLESS, I want to be the best I have ever been. I am learning to love myself. It's hard to get past those scars. I know I will fight them the rest of my life, but I need to start. The negativity in my head, that's the devil. Those evil thoughts/judgments, that's the devil. I have the ones that truly love me in my life. Those that make me feel bad, they shouldn't be in my life. Sad that it took me until 30 to officially want to change this. It's better late than never! The number shouldn't matter, its just to show how I am doing. That's what I need to remind myself.

Starting (January 7) : 278.4 lbs
Week 2 (Jan 14): 279.0 lbs
Week 3 (Jan 21): 280.8 lbs
Week 4 (Jan 28): 278.8 lbs
Week 9 (Mar 4): 281.4 lbs
Week 11 (Mar 18): 281.4 lbs

Weekly Winnings Through March 16th

I finally won in the last two weeks since I posted!

• Suave for Kids shampoo
• Free Dial Body Wash Coupon
• Hot Iron Holster
• Angelina Ballerina DVD

Weekly Menu March 17th to March 23rd

Monday - Sandwich Night

Tuesday - Hamburgers

Wednesday - Church Night

Thursday - Spaghetti

Friday - Tacos

Saturday - Pancakes and Sausage

Sunday - Crockpot Baked Potato Soup

Wordless Wednesday - You Know Your A Mom When You Clean Out Your Purse And .....

Transformation Tuesdays - Week 9

As I sit here writing, I feel like I have lost my will to lose weight. My mind tells me I can't do it. I look at my body and my clothes and think I can't change, I was crazy for thinking it. NO! I am crazy for thinking it can't happen! This time last year I was getting ready for my 3rd 5k race! This time last year I was bound and determined that I could get rid of this weight and be the person I wanted to be, not what other people wanted me to be. The difference between last year and this year? I am off my antidepressants (which hadn't been working for awhile anyways), I haven't done ONE 5k yet this year, let alone even signed up for one. I don't go to the gym every day and put it IN MY SCHEDULE that I'm going and see the reminder there every time I look at the calendar. I keep coming back to this blog thinking every week I will change, tomorrow. No, it needs to be today. I am NOT happy with myself and the way I feel so I need to do something to change that! One thing is I have been so busy doing volunteer work. I think this is great, but the first thing I need to learn to say is NO! I can say yes and hate it the whole time and feel the anxiety and pressures so much easier instead of just saying no! I know that some activities if I don't say yes will never happen, but that should not feel like it's my fault! Being a mom, I really need to learn to take time for myself. That is my goal this week, time to myself. That can be my daily devotional time AND something more. I'm going to try and get one gym time in this week. I might need to bribe myself, but it needs to be done. I am also going to try to log EVERYTHING  I eat at myfitnesspal. My user name is yo8798 if you want to send me some encouragement :) I apologize that my posts like this are random, I apologize that they might not be encouraging to you, but I don't apologize for me! This is me! This is the workings of a crazy mom of 3 that after 6 years of having one, then two, then three kids has still lost her mind and still can't balance her life! I'm the normal, average overweight, unhappy, loving my kids but not myself mom who NEEDS to put her life back in check!

Starting (January 7) : 278.4 lbs
Week 2 (Jan 14): 279.0 lbs
Week 3 (Jan 21): 280.8 lbs
Week 4 (Jan 28): 278.8 lbs
Week 9 (Mar 4): 281.4 lbs

Wow...Slow Winnings!

Well, since the last time I posted on February 17th and now, I haven't won anything! Hopefully this is the week and I'll win something great! If not, oh well! It was fun to be able to enter and know I had a chance to win something!

Weekly Menu for March 3rd To March 9th

Monday - Biscuits and Gravy

Tuesday - Southwest Soup

Wednesday - Church Night

Thursday - Ham and Bean soup with corn bread

Friday - Beef Enchiladas

Saturday - Eat Out

Sunday - Small Group pot luck